, ____, ( 09/12/01 anada485 , / \ ,_____ (--|_\_,,_, _ _| _ __________ ,-.______ _,---._ __ _/ \ / \+------ _| ) | |(_|(_|(_|_ .net------/ )----.-' `./-/ \ / / ( |__, ( ( ,' `/ /| \ / "There's Nothing Better Than Fuckin' \ `-" \'\ / | \ / Yourself Up the Butt With a Knife" `. , \ \ / | Y-------- ----------/`. ,'-`----Y | / by AphexTwin23 ( ; mEoW!@/| ' i________________________________________________| ,-. ,-'_______/ | / | | | ( * | / |____________________ Anada is cat-friendly! __) |__\ `.___________|/ `--' `--' save 5 minutes to spend with me the needy unwanted selfish teenage riot that only you have the potential to adore because you dont even know who i really am if only i were to give you a little more time because you are very good at figuring people out and knowing what keeps their hearts beating and their brains ticking but no instead i slap you on the ass throw a blindfold on you and put you under my spell hopefully so you will get yourself into a mess thats impossible to get out of or at least for the time being until some other beast comes along to take your place since life is about nothing other than one person replacing another recycling humans since we cant afford to clone them and all that jazz i wait as patiently as i am able to for you to arrive but you do have places to go people to meet things to do that are much more worthwhile than a moment spent with me the obsessive shallow waste that they pooped out and forgot to clean up yes well times ticking and youre still denying it because youre already in too deep waiting for the fall waiting to be hurt all over again because youre not much different than me thats why were perfect for each other because we both complain too much and do nothing to change the way things are because we both just dont care we've given up with the whole idea of caring a long time ago when our innocence had been broken and some dumb cunt sat on your face to make you happy do you remember that or has my presence replaced white trash already wait no i am white trash remember that we are together we are its so much fun doing all of this and not knowing what were really doing you come over you latch on to me begging to never let go you cry to me you really do i've seen you cry you whine to me about it all and i ignore it because i don't care i can't care how can i care do you no this is a waste of time to do this because no one else cares either you know what the best part is yes mockery it is mocking you mocking others mocking myself its all worth it the sarcasm that only you and i can understand uh oh whats that the whole point of view has changed who the fuck are you talking to you fuckin idiot its not me anymore ahh i will i really will scream in your defense because it feels good to yell at you the pitiful obnoxious child that has a gun up to the head we all die sometime you know but maybe nows not the best time because you and i are not finished we still have some reconciling to do in order to patch things up and have everything at least appear clean you know what i mean asshole i hate this i really do i know you do too you fuckin disgrace ugh i'm disgusted by your ugliness not only your appearance but your entire attitude and personality are just as ugly as your face damn too bad there's only one bullet in that gun because i dont think i can handle looking at you anymore you're so damn ugly maybe youll look better with those blood stains on your face on the wall on the floor on the ceiling on my hands now that's beauty kid thats the most beautiful thing i have ever seen how artistic of you i didn't know you were capable of such expertise such wisdom i admire that in you you deserve a fuckin trophy for that shit why haven't you ever told me you were so talented hmm i never knew you were so shy i guess you didn't find it important to tell me but you never told me anything anyhow it was all about me me me you didn't ever say how you were what you thought what mattered to you its all your fault that i've been selfish you allowed me to you put no stop to it you forgot how to say no forgot how to tell me i'm wrong that i've been wrong all along why didn't you do this you piss me off i never realized before how much you piss me off why couldn't you have been honest with me instead of just leading me on instead making me raise my hopes for a happy ending instead of letting me become so obsessed like i am right now obsessed with nothing obsessed with nothing tangible it's all been fun but who's it for who's waiting at the end of the tunnel i can't see it's too dark i wish if you turned on a light i want to know who the fuck is standing way down there at the end of our tunnel who am i looking at who am i talking to why won't you turn the fuckin light on you fucker god hates us all you know so it's not him it's not you because i thought you were beside me it's not me or is that a mirror at the end of the tunnel what am i talking about no i will not listen to you i just wish you were here /\___/\ ____________________________________________________________ /\___/\ \ -.- / \ -.- / `-.^.-' (c) 2001 Anada e'zine by AphexTwin23 `-.^.-' /"\ ________________________________________________________________ /"\