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 three people, three months, and suicide for everyone.

 antidepressants, celexa, adverse effects including

 "depression", "SUICIDE ATTEMPT"

 FDA

 Federal Dumb Ass(s)

 first one overdosed on 38 after consumption of cocaine and ecstasy.
 honestly, my email address is phelign@hotmail.com: would someone tell me
 what the drug (injected) "dream" is?

 friend with song woke up with dead person, cried, did not eat breakfast.
 later went to pool party.  later parents separated.  model, ecstasy,
 wealthy, lonely, intense.

 second one, shot to head, unknown cause, called my friend while i tutored
 her in latin pointlessly because of a mistaken beta point count.  not only
 is latin a dead language, it KILLS.

 corny

 third one, overdose, lesbian, terminal ovarian cancer.  i looked and found
 no obituary, the funeral was unsettling quick.

 if i go through chemo, will you shave your head?  yes.

 "i wish i could have been there"
 "i wish i could have talked to them"
 "i wish i could have held them"

 "i wish i could have" = "They died because i had not"

 early morning, overdose of most likely legal drug.

 "there is no record of a XXXXXXXX XXXXX having died at all in the state of
 Georgia"

 "check again"

 "this is so unfair"

 "would you testify to being suicidal?"

 "will it end like last time, or will we be civil about it?"

 "i am blocking you"

 "okay"


 (((MOTHER)))
 
 tit, a girl in finland while drunk lost her virginity in the mud to a boy 
 named

 stomach, i would crawl back into the womb if i didn't know she was a bitch

 butt, i can no longer sit in the same chair as


 (((FATHER)))

 leave the woman pregnant and bare-foot

 quoted: "so dad, if a woman says fuck me in a bar, all the men will line up
 except for a homosexual"

 "yes son"

 "good christian values"

 [*****]


 there are people who care about her who don't even know her yet.

 i've talked with some of my colleagues.

 "what is your policy on confidentiality?"

 "nothing we say leaves this room"

 , the except is a silent part of nothing.

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 `-.^.-' (c) 2001 Anada e'zine                             by Phelign `-.^.-'
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